A little survery nonsense...
1)Have you ever been searched by the cops?
Nope!
2)Do you close your eyes on roller coaster?
Only if I feel sick
3)When's the last time you've been sledding?
A couple months ago... and believe me, it was fun!
4)Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
I don't think this really applies to me... but alone
5)Do you believe in ghosts?
No
6)Do you consider yourself creative?
Sometimes
7)Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
I'm about 80% sure
8)Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Jennifer Aniston... I love most of her characters
9)Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics?
Yes, I do know some things
10)Do you know how to play poker?
I did at one time
11)Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Too many times
12)What's your favorite commercial?
Mini sirloin burgers!
13)Who was your first love?
Jesus!
15)Do you have a secret that no one knows but you?
I'm sure
16)Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
I am really torn... I might have to say Red Sox
17)Have you ever been Ice Skating?
No, and if I go now I'm so old its embarrassing!
18)How often do you remember your dreams?
Maybe half the time... I wish I did more, they're so entertaining!
19)What's the one thing on your mind?
Maybe I should go to bed
20)Do you always wear your seat belt?
Yes
21)What talent do you wish you had?
I wish I had a teeny bit of athletic talent
22)Do you like Sushi?
Not what I've had
23)What do you wear to bed?
PJs
24)Do you truly hate anyone?
No, not at all
25)If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be?
My husband!
26)Do you know anyone in jail?
No
27)What food do you find disgusting?
Mustard
28)Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back?
I hate to say it, but yes.
29)Have you ever been punched in the face?
Too many times, but mostly accidental
30)Do you believe in angels and demons?
Yes
Monday, June 15, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
I read something today that I thought was very profound... ok, maybe profound is not the word, but it certainly is a good reminder and the words hold a lot of truth. In context, the author is talking about letting go of our fears/insecurities/pasts, and learning to fear the Lord. This is a phrase I hear a lot, but I don't think I've ever really thought about what "fearing" means. I think this put it into a little perspective -
God is huge, He is awesome, indeed terrifying. He is powerful. He holds all the keys to life and death, ecstasy and agony. Our futures are entirely in His hands. He is sovereign, and He answers to no one. He holds the oceans in the palm of His hands. The lightning checks in with Him. But for His mercy, we would all be consumed. He is holy and does not wink at wickedness. He lifts up and He casts down. He makes the mind and can break the mind. When He rises from His throne, His enemies scatter. He has no equal. He is complete, pure, unadulterated otherness.
Maybe these words are just simple, but as I continued to read I just had one of those moments where I realized God can't be put in a box. When I saw the word terrifying, initially I thought about a monster, or something scary, but in reality, He truly is terrifying. Terrifying means to create fear - in this case, an awe and amazement in the vastness and holiness of the Creator. I am reminded of a video I watched a few years ago, where Louie Giglio talked about the greatness of God, by showing pictures of His creation, the universe. While I think that example is a great reminder, I think that the hugeness of God is even more evident in the lives of His children. God continually changes my life, I can look back at my past and see in amazement how He was working, even in the most disgusting situations. He truly is powerful, yet I often forget.
Recently, as I've moved home, I've had the delight of spending more time with my nephews. As much as these little boys may annoy or aggravate me, I love them to pieces! I can't think of much that I wouldn't do for them. In spending time with them, one of the things I love to do is listen to them pray. When Evan prays, he changes into a completely different little boy - his voice becomes so high-pitched, it gets quieter as he continues, and I'm pretty sure he could pray for hours! Most of the boys' prayers consist of asking to be good little boys, but as to the other content, you just never know what it is going to be! For instance, it could be please let Grandma and Grandpa get a pool, or it might be thank you Jesus for the nice, nice, nice day (only about 20 more nices in there!). But as I ponder the amazingness of God, I am reminded of a prayer 5 year-old Jeremy recently voiced (as told by my sister). It went something like this, "God, You are so strong, You are so mighty, You are so powerful! And I want to die! So that I can be with You!"
Of course, I can imagine his parents initial reaction to this, maybe something like, "Whoa! Hold on!", and trying to use it as a teachable moment! But it is amazing to see that a 5 year-old probably has a better view of God than someone who has been on this earth much longer. Perhaps that is the key - in going through life perhaps we lose some of the awe and wonder that we once had. Perhaps we lose the perspective of a 5 year-old, whose world consists of wanting to be Batman or Spiderman, because they hold the power... But! That 5 year-old still knows that God is more powerful than any superhero. I know that is something I often forget, and I wonder how different life would be to live in complete fear of the Lord.
God is huge, He is awesome, indeed terrifying. He is powerful. He holds all the keys to life and death, ecstasy and agony. Our futures are entirely in His hands. He is sovereign, and He answers to no one. He holds the oceans in the palm of His hands. The lightning checks in with Him. But for His mercy, we would all be consumed. He is holy and does not wink at wickedness. He lifts up and He casts down. He makes the mind and can break the mind. When He rises from His throne, His enemies scatter. He has no equal. He is complete, pure, unadulterated otherness.
Maybe these words are just simple, but as I continued to read I just had one of those moments where I realized God can't be put in a box. When I saw the word terrifying, initially I thought about a monster, or something scary, but in reality, He truly is terrifying. Terrifying means to create fear - in this case, an awe and amazement in the vastness and holiness of the Creator. I am reminded of a video I watched a few years ago, where Louie Giglio talked about the greatness of God, by showing pictures of His creation, the universe. While I think that example is a great reminder, I think that the hugeness of God is even more evident in the lives of His children. God continually changes my life, I can look back at my past and see in amazement how He was working, even in the most disgusting situations. He truly is powerful, yet I often forget.
Recently, as I've moved home, I've had the delight of spending more time with my nephews. As much as these little boys may annoy or aggravate me, I love them to pieces! I can't think of much that I wouldn't do for them. In spending time with them, one of the things I love to do is listen to them pray. When Evan prays, he changes into a completely different little boy - his voice becomes so high-pitched, it gets quieter as he continues, and I'm pretty sure he could pray for hours! Most of the boys' prayers consist of asking to be good little boys, but as to the other content, you just never know what it is going to be! For instance, it could be please let Grandma and Grandpa get a pool, or it might be thank you Jesus for the nice, nice, nice day (only about 20 more nices in there!). But as I ponder the amazingness of God, I am reminded of a prayer 5 year-old Jeremy recently voiced (as told by my sister). It went something like this, "God, You are so strong, You are so mighty, You are so powerful! And I want to die! So that I can be with You!"
Of course, I can imagine his parents initial reaction to this, maybe something like, "Whoa! Hold on!", and trying to use it as a teachable moment! But it is amazing to see that a 5 year-old probably has a better view of God than someone who has been on this earth much longer. Perhaps that is the key - in going through life perhaps we lose some of the awe and wonder that we once had. Perhaps we lose the perspective of a 5 year-old, whose world consists of wanting to be Batman or Spiderman, because they hold the power... But! That 5 year-old still knows that God is more powerful than any superhero. I know that is something I often forget, and I wonder how different life would be to live in complete fear of the Lord.
Well, I've decided to go old school and start blogging again. In the past, I found blogging to be great fun, but gave it up because I went through one of those, make-everything-in-life-simple phases. In order to avoid this, I've decided not to force myself into slavery to my blog. This will merely be an outlet for those times in life that I feel it is absolutely necessary to throw my thoughts out to the unsuspecting victims that may find themselves reading my blog. Even as I write this, I feel somewhat anxious, I want to scream why?!?! You have a facebook, myspace, twitter, why add something else to this mess! I guess that I myself don't even fully understand. Now, I think I've spoken my peace and I can begin.
I would say the past month or so has been an extremely peculiar chapter of my life. The first week in May I found myself packing up 3 years of college life. During the months prior I had looked forward to that moment, the one in which I would gladly finish my education, and step out into the great world. But instead I found it very bittersweet... college was a time of great change in my life. This change came with both joy and heartache, but I wouldn't change those years for anything. I went to ETBU with the intention of getting my nursing degree, never once thinking that my life could change in the process. Nevertheless my life did change, I met amazing people, and I learned so much - both in and out of the classroom. Maybe the whole college experience isn't for everyone, but I can certainly see that it was in God's plan for my life. I could probably write and write about this, but I will limit myself this once.
Fast forward a little bit, to the first weekend in May. I found myself being pinned as a nurse, walking across the stage and shaking the hand of Dr. Riley, and saying good bye to Marshall, TX forever. Oh yeah, and my entire family made the trip from WA for my special weekend. Two days later I started grown up life by spending 5 days in the car with my best friend, and we both survived! I then started what might be the darkest 3 or so weeks of my life as I prepared for NCLEX. Those weeks consisted of studying, sleep, and a lot of prayer. But during this time I received an offer at St. Joseph for a Critical Care Residency position! I also celebrated my 21st, and was able to cross of an item on my bucket list - dine at the top of the Space Needle. It was truly a fun night, and I got to spend it with some of the most special people in my life. A few days later, June 3rd, 2009, might be the happiest day of my life - I found out that I had defeated the NCLEX devil and was officially an RN!
The past few weeks I've been recuperating from college life - catching up on sleep, unpacking the last few suitcases, and catching up with old friends. I've also been trying to catch a new perspective or direction for my life. Up until this time I've had a checklist for life, much like the character of Jennifer, on Marley & Me. This checklist has included things like graduate from high school, get into nursing school, survive nursing school, graduate from college, pass NCLEX, and get a great job. Now that I've done these things, what next? Of course there are plenty of things I'd like to experience in the future, but what really is God's plan for my life? I thought that by now I would have it all figured out, but I'm learning that life is not always what I expected it to be. I'm also finding out that the more I try to find out what His plan is, the more distractions are thrown in my way. Fortunately, in this somewhat troubled time, I've found some peace and direction in the form of two very different Bible Studies. In the first, I've been learning about the pitfalls of life, and how Satan can so easily throw us off track. I've been able to finally understand some things about my past, and in the process hopefully prepare myself for the future. In another study, I've been learning about mistakes I make in my relationship with Christ. So often I put other things before Him, things that aren't necessarily bad, but that are not worthy of my time or attention. Even though I don't necessarily serve Him in the way that I should, He still pours out amazing blessings into my life.
It is my hope that the next 3 years of my life will bring about even more change than the past 3 have. I know that like the change of the past 3 years, it will probably come with a lot of heartache, but my prayer is that the fire will cause me to be more like my Creator.
I would say the past month or so has been an extremely peculiar chapter of my life. The first week in May I found myself packing up 3 years of college life. During the months prior I had looked forward to that moment, the one in which I would gladly finish my education, and step out into the great world. But instead I found it very bittersweet... college was a time of great change in my life. This change came with both joy and heartache, but I wouldn't change those years for anything. I went to ETBU with the intention of getting my nursing degree, never once thinking that my life could change in the process. Nevertheless my life did change, I met amazing people, and I learned so much - both in and out of the classroom. Maybe the whole college experience isn't for everyone, but I can certainly see that it was in God's plan for my life. I could probably write and write about this, but I will limit myself this once.
Fast forward a little bit, to the first weekend in May. I found myself being pinned as a nurse, walking across the stage and shaking the hand of Dr. Riley, and saying good bye to Marshall, TX forever. Oh yeah, and my entire family made the trip from WA for my special weekend. Two days later I started grown up life by spending 5 days in the car with my best friend, and we both survived! I then started what might be the darkest 3 or so weeks of my life as I prepared for NCLEX. Those weeks consisted of studying, sleep, and a lot of prayer. But during this time I received an offer at St. Joseph for a Critical Care Residency position! I also celebrated my 21st, and was able to cross of an item on my bucket list - dine at the top of the Space Needle. It was truly a fun night, and I got to spend it with some of the most special people in my life. A few days later, June 3rd, 2009, might be the happiest day of my life - I found out that I had defeated the NCLEX devil and was officially an RN!
The past few weeks I've been recuperating from college life - catching up on sleep, unpacking the last few suitcases, and catching up with old friends. I've also been trying to catch a new perspective or direction for my life. Up until this time I've had a checklist for life, much like the character of Jennifer, on Marley & Me. This checklist has included things like graduate from high school, get into nursing school, survive nursing school, graduate from college, pass NCLEX, and get a great job. Now that I've done these things, what next? Of course there are plenty of things I'd like to experience in the future, but what really is God's plan for my life? I thought that by now I would have it all figured out, but I'm learning that life is not always what I expected it to be. I'm also finding out that the more I try to find out what His plan is, the more distractions are thrown in my way. Fortunately, in this somewhat troubled time, I've found some peace and direction in the form of two very different Bible Studies. In the first, I've been learning about the pitfalls of life, and how Satan can so easily throw us off track. I've been able to finally understand some things about my past, and in the process hopefully prepare myself for the future. In another study, I've been learning about mistakes I make in my relationship with Christ. So often I put other things before Him, things that aren't necessarily bad, but that are not worthy of my time or attention. Even though I don't necessarily serve Him in the way that I should, He still pours out amazing blessings into my life.
It is my hope that the next 3 years of my life will bring about even more change than the past 3 have. I know that like the change of the past 3 years, it will probably come with a lot of heartache, but my prayer is that the fire will cause me to be more like my Creator.
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